Finding out that you are hurt by your own actions of running after your material desires is hard to swallow. Today you realise that you are caught in an unhealthy and unproductive situation. Loosing contact with your core has made you doubt yourself and your future. Attend to your wound well. Your core can never be hurt, you loose sight of it, it may sleep, but you don't hurt it. Examine your assumptions carefully, make sure you are not working from a false picture of yourself and the situation, or that your vision is clouded by feelings of envy, jealousy, greed or craving for power. Use this opportunity to look at this side of yourself carefully and thoroughly examine the reason for your feelings. Then it is time to take responsibility for yourself and your way of life. Live your life fully and in your own unique way, get to know yourself and your wants and needs and do not be ashamed for any of them. This way real abundance, freedom and power will be able to reach every part of you. Don't forget to integrate it and guide it wisely.