The energy of the Seven of Spring is still with you today. It wants to highlight that you are fighting yourself, because you are taking a stand against Love, trying hard to push it away. The thing about Love is, when you close yourself to one part of it, you push it away completely.
What do I mean by that? Well, when you close yourself off to Divine Love, which means you ignore all the signs and messages you are receiving and surround yourself in fear and worry energy, you also block every other kind of Love.
Or, if you have decided that you don't want a romantic relationship and you close that door, you also build a barricade against any other kind of Love.
There is at least one area in your life that you have completely closed to Love. This then causes you to fight yourself, as it takes a lot of strength and ego energy to repeatedly fight off Love that is trying to come through.
The energy you need for this fight has to come from somewhere, and so you are constantly draining yourself. The shield of worry and fear energy that you carry around with you needs to be fed continuously, so situations are created for you to be able to do this.
This takes up all of your energy and makes you feel tired and unwell. It is very demoralising and can make you feel as though the whole world is against you. The only way to stop this form of self-destruction is to open your heart, starting with forgiveness work, truly forgiving yourself.
This kind of work takes time, patience and the help of a trusted healer or psychologist, as you can only come so far trying to do it yourself. You need someone to point you in the right direction, as you are caught in your own battle at the moment. Please seek the help you need.
(Fairy Tarot Cards by Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine)