Change is in the air, you can feel it, touch it, taste it. And for some reason you are trying to resist it so badly that you are hurting. The thing is, that this feeling of pain is so familiar to you, and feels so “safe”, that it is difficult for you to let it go.
You have started to cultivate a habit of grief. You revel in it, you enjoy it. It’s the drama of it all that makes you feel alive. Every time something happens that takes you out of this feeling, you try to slam it down.
You like this feeling of despondency, of feeling bad, and today the time has come to admit it to yourself. The only time that you can feel yourself fully is when you are hurting, when you are feeling down. Then you can feel yourself being here. It has become an addiction.
Let the Five of Summer inspire you to transform the grief and pain into Love. Take the energies of this Full Snow Moon in the determined sign of Leo, the powerful penumbral Lunar Eclipse and the New Year Comet 45P, and make them work for you.
The first step is admitting to yourself that you are addicted to grief, pain and drama. When you can do this, you have a great chance to transform it into happiness and love. You are so powerful and great in making your life miserable, just think of what you can achieve when you change your focus onto joy and happiness.