You are still holding onto something and are adamant that you don’t want to let it go. To the outside world you are pretending to do so, but deep inside you think that you need to keep holding onto it as tight as you possibly can.
This is an excuse, something you have made up to deceive yourself. You have cultivated it to hide behind, to use it as a deflective shield, so that nobody else can hurt you. The thing is, by doing this you are actually hurting yourself!
To make room for something far more valuable and important, you need to bring this major aspect of your life to an end. As only if you put the past behind you and close the door, will a new door open and a new direction will emerge.
Through resisting this ending you are feeling emotional and physical pain. Once you make the conscious decision to let it go, the pain you are feeling will also leave with it. The more you clear away any limitations and unhealthy attachments, the more you will set your true self free.
Let Release show you how to let it go. It’s time for you to anchor your energy fully in the earth, so that your true self can emerge and shine out. There is no reason for you to hide, as you are so much more than you think you are.
You can only truly connect to others, if you open yourself up to them. Not just a bit, but fully. Release all judgments about yourself and all those that surround you, as this will pave the way to truly make room for new opportunities.