At the moment, you are leading a life of extremes. On the one hand, you would like to make changes, on the other you are trying your best to create drama in your life so that you have a reason not to make a start.
On the one hand, you are saying that you have no money, yet, on the other hand you are spending it as though it is going out of fashion. You would love to change, as long as it doesn’t involve you actually doing anything for it.
Your attitude is rather inflexible and very resistant to make any kind of alterations. You are making all the right noises, but your Ego keeps telling you that you have already established a way of living that works for you, so why change?
The thing is though, is it really working? Let the Four of Earth inspire you to be completely honest with yourself. If what you have been doing was working – well, honestly, you wouldn’t be where you are right now.
Try and take some time today to go into yourself in meditation, so that you can take a look at what is really keeping you back. Be patient with yourself. The process of opening up takes self-love and patience. You can do this! Have faith.